SHE LOVES ME NOT:

I'm so sick of this emotion, and the torment that it brings - Drawn in by its illusion; Just a song the siren sings - I've crashed full force upon your shores - I am strewed upon your beach - I hold your body close to me, But your heart is out of reach - She loves me! She loves me not! - It's tearing me apart - Like a sentimental parasite feeding off my heart - She loves me! She love me not! - Will this ever end - I swore I'd never let another seep under my skin - You infest my dreams and fantasies - A nervousness inside of me - Left waiting with anxiety for something that may never be - There is no second chance my love - No running back to me - Your prayers they all were answered, but you were too blind to see - I dwell on flaws, your imperfections - As I fan the (these) flames of hate - A change of heart a perfect kiss; My dear it's much too late

IF YOU'RE WATCHING:

I think I've found what I'm looking for - Behind those eyes an open door - That vacant stare which I adore - I'm your slut, and you're my whore - Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain - Let us just makebleive it's yesterday again - And mother if you're watching, look away - And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away ... just look away - I think I found what I'm looking for - So hit the lights and shut the door - Listen carefully here's the socore - I'm your slut, and you're my whore - Spare yourself the aching heart - And spare yourself the shame - Let us just make believe it's yesterday again - And mother if you're watching, look away - And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away - It sometimes make me sick inside - Ashamed of a life that I must hide -  I know you'll never understand - I'm sorry there's no wedding band - But deep inside there's still that child - Innocent in a world gone wild - Obedient of your moral code - Scarred by a Christian overload - But still I live by truth and love - I still have hopes in the above - I still have interest in the cross - But mother if your listening...... shut if off

WITCH HUNT:

It's in the Puritan's pride with the innocent who died - It's in the Nazi youth with their ignorant truth - It's in the Catholic church with their false self worth - It's the blind leading the blind - time after time after time - And it's always the same - Everybody needs somebody to blame - It's in the Christian extreme who have tainted the dream - It's in the militant mind with their battles to find - It's in the quick to judge who always carry a grudge - It's the blind leading the blind - Time after time after time - And it's always the same - Everybody needs somebody to blame - It's the burn the witch mentality that's hunting down and killing me - "Think for yourself" is heresy, an utter sin of blasphemy - It's the burn the witch mentality with flames of hate and jealousy - A crusade against identity where innocent are found guilty

WHAT IS A SIN?:

A slave to your emotions - A servant of desire - Trapped within your web of lust - Dragged down into your fire - The darkness seeps and creeps within - Our moral fiber's wearing thin - Seduced by decadence and sin - Oh how we make the devil grin - I gave in to temptation - I fell so far from grace - Because innocence can be such a lonely place - We found the place where lovers meet - In the comfort of the night - Forbidden fruit it tastes so sweet - In the garden of delight

GOD'S MISTAKES:

I'll spend hours in the mirror or as long as it takes - I'll spend hours in this mirror correcting God's mistakes - I think I'll find true love tonight - I can feel My heart pulsating - I think I'll find true love tonight - My soul mate is waiting - Just killing time before I die - As this dream of mine it shatters - I know it's sad but I wont cry cause nothing really matters

MEDUSA:

And I have lost all ambition - No more driving force behind me - My emotions just stopped working - No more love to give inside me - And a cold and icy network has replaced the veins that bind me - And the angel who has stood guard has just left his post beside me - I swear I'll never love again - I'll live my life alone - I've stared into Medusa's eyes - I've turned myself to stone - I swear I'll never love again - I'll live my life alone - I've stared into Medusa's eyes - I've turned my heart to stone - No beating heart beneath my skin - No warmth is found within - That burning flame of love inside - That part of me has died - Medusa ...... Medusa look my way

YOUR DARKEST ROMANCE:

Desires...Swimming through your mind - Desires...Of the darkest Kind - Never in your deepest dreaming Could you imagine this - It's a frightening lust your feeling a haunting sense of bliss - I'm a nightmare turned appealing, yes my love I'm all this - A package wrapped in shadows and sealed with a kiss - I have you caught up in my web - So tight you cannot move - Soon I will let you loose but first - Loyalty you must prove - For now I will be the master - But soon I'll be your slave - I'll answer all your secret prayers, the fantasies you crave - Welcome to your darkest romance - Feel the pain and pleasure mix - I grant your wish now you may rape me - Tie me up and get your fix - You stare at me all through the night - You stare with starving eyes - You've never felt like this before - With me your true love lies - You say your heart is my new home - You need my cryptic ways - Oh never have you felt like this - With me your true love stays - We'll take this romance to the grave, to the heavens above with obsessive, possessive, undying love

LOVE R.I.P.:

Life's pictures turn to pale shadows beneath this midnight sky - Dark winds blow the empty souls of the love that we let die - The shattered shards of memories cut deep into our hearts - Tormented and desperate we watch as our love departs - And when our passion flames become so deathly cold to touch - It's so sad we could let go of what used to mean so much - I pray our distress will soon end and may our pain decease - But I fear and I wonder if our love will rest in peace - Still shadows clutch upon our souls - Grabs our hearts and gains control - The love is dead but haunts us still - And I fear, it always will - I haunts us still....It..haunts..us..still.....

NIGHT LIFE (WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING):

While you were sleeping I found my place to be free - While you were sleeping I found my sanctuary - The City streets they move and breath - They breed such filth and sin - The night shift comes to set the stage, the fashion show begins - Electricity flows through the city's veins - Like as fast as lightning - Like a ghost train - The city's alive and the city's insane - Give me the fast life (night life) minus the pain - The night can seem like paradise when seen through eyes like mine - The flame of my love for the night, no greater light could shine - The Iron tongue of midnight licks that enchanted hour - If only you weren't sleeping you could feel it's brilliant power - The way the shadows drape and veil - The sun falls out of sight - My soul it seems to come alive - Sinks deep into the night - Bondage collars, patent leather, five foot boas and peacock feathers, men in drag and holding hands, gutter punks and death rock bands, the homeless and the well to do, the old school veterans and the new, and on the corner love's for sale - Tonight we mix heaven with hell.

EYES OF INNOCENTS:

When will you understand the true meaning of this - All the feelings at hand, the passion and the kiss - When will you comprehend this complexity - The burning deep within when you're so close to me - Beware my child who falls in love - Be careful of how you feel - For love can be a painful game with scars that never heal - When will you understand the full meaning of this - All the feelings at hand, the comfort and the bliss - When will you decipher what has long been unknown - Whether it be; love, lust, or the fear of being alone - Beware my child who holds the key to the vaults of your emotions - For that key it holds a power; the control of your devotions - Love may seem so beautiful, Emotional and kind - But in the eyes of innocence love can be so blind.

SUICIDE:

By loving you my heart has died - It turned cold and gray inside - I had no choice I lost control - How was I to ever know - It was of you I dreamed at night - It was for you I gave my life - Because of you me sadness grows - How was I to ever know - I became so attached to you - I didn't think it would all fall through - I try so hard, I can't let go - How was I supposed to know - I thought God sent you here for me - I thought all this was meant to be - I never thought I'd fall this low - How was I supposed to know - Did All I could God knows I tried...God heard me cry...God by my side...But loving you was suicide.

NIGHRMARE NEVER ENDING:

It was London after midnight and the sky was bleeding rain - The shadows fell so dark and thick they covered everything - In times like these and nights like this it seems the world's gone insane - And the catholic nuns in their black and white hold tight their crucifix tonight - I can feel my life descending - I dreamt I died again - It's a nightmare never ending - Will I ever be the same - I can feel it all descending - To a shadow land of pain - It's a nightmare never ending - Will I ever wake again - Out there on the city streets the violence is beyond belief - And as the cycle keeps on turning I fear there'll be no relief - A future damned or so it seems - Say goodbye to pleasant dreams - And with the thoughts of what's ahead I sometimes wish that I was dead - "on earth as it is in hell" not what were told but it sure suits well - Those who love, trust and ignore greed; they run thin, they're a dying breed - Will we see heavens gates, or are we forced toward different fates - In this world we must fight and fend, "Oh my lord will this ever end?"

WALKING THROUGH WALLS:

Did you notice the sky the night I died? - Did you see how bright the stares had shined? - Did the crisp cold air make you shiver? - Did it make your precious insides quiver? - Did you cry the night I went away? - Where there words you still wanted to say? - Did you pray for me to come home? - Do you feel that you are all alone? - I miss you and the mortal world - But not as much as I thought I would - This heavenly place where I was hurled - I think I like it more than I should - If you miss me you can see me walking through walls in the middle of the night - Stalking your halls in the bright moon light

ISN'T IT STRANGE? :

In cruel waves and freezing water - The sea of love is drowning me - It grabbed my heart and pulled me under - So far below I could not breath - So I sink into it's darkness - Down into the great dark blue - Paralyzed by frigid currents - Held down by dreams of you - Right before my heart stops beating - I somehow find the strength to swim - The might to overcome my fears and return to you again - Once I got a glimpse of heaven when I looked into your eyes - I saw my life flash before me - Like it does before one dies - Isn't it strange how things do change - And how our life gets rearranged - And isn't it strange how much we gain from all the sadness and all the pain.... Isn't it strange - Isn't it so strange - (Isn't it strange) - Isn't it so strange

LOVE YOU MORE:

To think of all the perfect nights - Seeing your face in shadowed lights - To think of all the perfect kisses - And could be kisses we have missed - To think of all the times together - And how I wished they'd last forever - Only makes my feelings soar - Only makes me love you more - To think of all the words I'd say - In hopes for things to go my way - To think of all the times I'd cry - And how I felt you slipping by - To think of all the precious things - And how quickly things can change - Only makes my feelings roar - Only makes me love you more - To think of all the mistakes we made - And all the stupid games we played - To think of all the prayers I said - And times I wished that I were dead - To think of all the everything - And dreams of being together again - Only make my feelings pour - Oly makes me love you more - I love you more than I can say - I love you more and more each day

SOME KIND OF WONDERFUL:

The storm cloud still floats over me - And it's gotten so dark I cannot see - It all seems so damn pointless - There must be more to life than this - I had my dreams that seemed so real - My useless dreams that I could not feel - God knows I wanted to stay - I never planned to walk away - But every day the same old thing - Nothing left to gain but pain - We closed the door on yesterday - And memories are all that stayed - There are no words that I can say - To make things go my way - And every day the sane old thing - Nothing left to gain but pain - You said you loved me - You said you'd never leave - But talk is cheep - And anyone can learn to speak - But it is more than words - There are those things that cant be heard - Like those times we were together - Like those times when things were better - When it was you and me - When it was meant to be - But it will never be the same - Unless I have you hear again - It all seems so damn pointless - There must be more to life then this - And I tried so hard not to care - But I still don't know where to go if your not there - So I still am waiting for that day when some kind of wonderful will come my way

DEATH AND DYING:

A new wave of darkness spreads across this land - Don't try to fight it - Don't try to understand - Blessed be those who can survive all the trials that come with life - Blessed be those who can make it through with out being loved by someone like you - Is there nothing left worth living for if you cant be with the one you adore? - Is there nothing left worth living for when everyday the pain hurts more? - Cant you tell by the way I'm dressed I am so fucking depressed - Cant you tell by the look in my eyes something inside wants to die - I try so very hard to care - But life is just so unfair - I try so very hard to care - But love is just so unfair - Blessed be those who don't call it quits with a razor fine slit across their wrists - Blessed be those with a reason to live; for that there's nothing I wouldn't give

IT DOESN'T GET DARK ANYMORE:

We dream about a blacken sky, and all the color soon will die - Paint our world black and gray; push the color far away - Ignore the world outside your own - The one you created is your only home - Follow your heart and don't give in - If you changed now it would be a sin - We go to the same place we always went before - But something has changed - It doesn't get dark anymore.....

WHEN SKIES ARE GRAY:

On those days when skies are gray - And wind blows through the trees - I often wonder where you are, and if you think of me - I shiver in those morning winds - I sometimes want to cry - And I often hope my feelings will someday pass me by - When rain drops lightly pierce the sky and soak into the leaves - It sometimes feels like yesterday, and I think your still with me - I shiver in those morning winds - I sometimes want to die - And I often hope my memories will someday pass me by

NECROMANCE:

I heard your voice within my head - I could of sworn that you were dead - And you don't know how real it seems kissing corpses in my dreams - Is this some kind of haunting sign - Is this some kind of state of mind - Is this some sort of second chance - Is this some sort of necromance - Take me where the Fear Cult forms - And take me where the shadows swarm - Take me where I can be free - The place we call "insanity" - Blood stains on the marble floors - And blood stains on the tapestries - There's blood stains on all I own - And blood stains on my memories - Soon I'll say my last goodbye - The final wish before I die - Pushing out away from here - And pushing out my final tear - Soon I'll breath my final breath - And wake up lonely kissing death - Everyone is flesh and bone - And everyone will die alone.....

MEMORIES:

You're the most beautiful creature I ever set eyes on - I remember you now and the times on the mountain - You carried a smile and you carried my heart away - We sat by the stream surrounded by jigsaw trees - I remember it all and such beautiful memories - You were the most beautiful creature I ever set eyes on - You're the best memories I have from times that are now gone - I was so young but you, you were so much younger - We were both so innocent, and so innocent together - I remember it all and it will never be better - You were the most gorgeous girl I ever set eyes on - You made me feel like nothing in this world was wrong - You were the most wonderful friend there ever could be - You were always the one who stayed in the heart of me - I remember it all and you made me so happy....

MARIE:

Marie is always glad to see me - Always glad that I am there - She makes me feel like something special - Makes me feel like someone cares - She'll hug me like there's no tomorrow - She'll take my pain and take my sorrow - She'll give me joy and happiness - And all the things my heart has missed - She'll grace you with all her beauty - Impress you with all her charm - She'll comfort you in wings of angles - And fall asleep within your arms - Marie cant you see you mean so much to me? - Marie cant you see you mean the world to me?

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